Hmmm I think I should share a bit about what I’ve been going through lately. I mentioned in a previous post that during the Baby VOX: New Breath reunion concert, I felt like a burden and didn’t want to take up space, which prevented me from connecting with others the way that I wanted to. It was after choosing to actually take up space that I got to experience that profound moment... »
November 16, 2025
Return to Sender: Removing What Isn’t Mine
16November
November 14, 2025
Misheard Lyrics
14November
So I feel a bit embarrassed by this but I finally had to look up the lyrics because something wasn't making sense to me... »
November 9, 2025
Everything You Never Asked But I’m Telling You Anyway
09November
For some time, I’ve been thinking about all these random things that I haven’t been able to share yet about myself, unable to find proper places to slot them in. They started piling up big time and I suddenly had a thought to just make a list and share them all at once! Hopefully this list can give you a more well rounded idea of who I am as a person. Let me warn you... »
November 2, 2025
My Spiritual K-pop Pilgrimage: The Concert That Brought Me Home
02November
Okay, I think I’ve sat on this post long enough. I’ve been trying to process what happened and because of its magnitude, I think I am still processing it. I wanted to make sure I’ve captured everything correctly but every now and then I still get new revelations and insights lol. I guess I can always make another post about this later if anything else comes up. Anyway, y’all might’ve already... »
October 31, 2025
The Blessing Dream
31October
So… I had another crazy dream but this time it wasn’t me who was the “wild” one T__T. Oddly enough I was the most reasonable and tame one lol. Unexpected XD It started with me “building” a new home. It was in an ethereal white space and the home was coming together in a modular way, with boxes connecting to one another to make different rooms. The place was... »
October 24, 2025
Dear Universe: Do You Photoshop?
24October
Dear Universe, It’s been awhile. I’m still here. I know you’re listening. Just doing it like a ninja and all I can do is catch glimpses of your magic. I could be wrong, but I believe you might’ve been sending me “downloads” of sorts, particularly a vision of what my twin flame might look like now. And so I was wondering… are you also planning to send them... »
October 20, 2025
Swept Up in the Current
20October
Hmmm I don’t believe I’ve shared this yet, but perhaps I might’ve alluded to it — I’ve experienced some strange “psychic” phenomena most memorably in the past year or so that really caught my attention. I’m not sure what to make of them yet. They seem to come to me whenever they want, I can’t really control them either. I’ve just been going... »
October 2, 2025
Telephone Gone Wrong
02October
Omg I’m dying. Everything went wrong so quickly 🤣
September 26, 2025
OMG I Finally Found It!!!
26September
OMGOMGOMG I’ve been looking for this song since forever and the only information I had available was part of the mp3 name from decades ago. I used to listen to this song on repeat and I didn’t know why as I don’t understand the lyrics but I just knew I loved it. I decided to ask AI to help me find it with just a couple of clues — that a woman sings it, it’s a love ballad, might’ve been from a... »
September 21, 2025
The Art of Forgetting You’re the Artist
21September
So I’ve been sharing my piano playing with my friends and the reactions I’ve gotten have been quite fascinating and surprising to me. While the overall response is quite positive, the most common reaction I received is, “WTF you’re actually good!” and I’m like… have I never told anyone I know how to play the piano, lol? It feels like everyone’s discovering a whole new part of me that... »
September 17, 2025
My Deer Gang
17September
I found out something very cute recently. Apparently, when I’m deep asleep, sometimes a family of 6-7 deer likes to come to my backyard and just chill lol. Like sit there and chill for an hour at a time. I learned this is not normal behavior, as humans are usually seen as unsafe for deer. I’ve def seen them hanging out during the day before, like in the photo above, but they’re... »
September 14, 2025
It Runs in the Family: The BCME Edition
14September
BTW, I mentioned in an earlier post that I had a theory my twin flame is a gangster on the run. I know it sounds crazy and so I wondered why this thought even came into my mind. It didn’t really make much sense. So, I took some time to search through my memories and… I think I got it! There was this one day, over two decades ago, where I had met a few of my twin flame’s family... »
September 13, 2025
Two Drifters Off to See the World
13September
🌑 🌊
I couldn’t find the right emoji so y’all get a tsunami instead.
It do be one of those days.
🎶
September 10, 2025
One Summer’s Day (Short Ver.)
10September
Note: This one starts off low but then amps up so don’t have your volume too high. Weeeeeee another one! This one was really difficult to record though because I don’t know it too well and have had the least amount of practice with it as opposed to the other pieces. So I made an incredible amount of mistakes while trying to record it and wanted to rip my hair out through the process 🤣... »
September 7, 2025
From Park Takedowns to Wagyu Demands: My Martial Arts Journey
07September
Here’s an interesting story that a friend had reminded me of about an event we had both attended. Back in the day, when I had moved out of the city I was very bored and was looking for things to do. I’ve always loved sports / physical type activities growing up so I gravitated towards martial arts. I ended up joining a karate school. I figured it could be a good way to learn some self... »
September 3, 2025
Words For the Courageous Soul
03September
Today, I’d like to offer a word of encouragement to those who have been sticking around this blog and doing the hard inner work. I’ve made around 80 posts by now and if you’ve been following along and haven’t run away screaming yet, then that’s amazing and quite an accomplishment. This means you’re someone who’s courageous enough to face the vulnerable... »
August 31, 2025
The Day My Higher Self Said ‘Absolutely Not’
31August
So, after taking a road trip to visit my friend Nicole at the end of last year, I was inspired to see what’s possible for the future. Spending time with her had opened my mind up to so many different possibilities that I felt I was in a space of active creation for life planning. That’s one of the beautiful things about Nicole, the possibilities always seem endless! That’s when... »
August 27, 2025
When Memory and Reality Tell Two Different Stories
27August
I discovered something fascinating about the old photos of me and my twin flame that I had found around a month ago and why I was avoiding that box and the room it was in for the longest time. For some reason, whenever I try to pull up the memory I have of the last time I had looked at the photos in the past, I see myself wondering why my twin flame looks so “dead in the eyes.” At the... »
August 24, 2025
The Baby Who Stopped Traffic (And How I Found Her Again)
24August
I was recently reminded of a story that my mother tells me from time to time about how happy I was as a baby. My mom used to have a path that she’d take to pick my sibling up from school. On one particular street, the elderly and retired would chill outside of their homes in their yards together and whenever they saw baby me pass by in the stroller, their faces would light up. My mom said that... »
August 23, 2025
I did it!!
23August
OMG!!!!!!!! I practiced non-stop from 3AM til 9AM trying to get the best recording as I could of Nausicaä, with as few mistakes as possible, and I think I finally did it. I played it so much I basically memorized the first few pages 😭😭😭😭 I updated the post with the new version and left the one with mistakes underneath in case there are those of you who really enjoy listening to my mistakes lol... »
August 22, 2025
Arabesque (Short Ver.)
22August
A good friend of mine mentioned, after hearing my previous recording, that she loves classical music and I said me too! We were both shocked to find out that the other liked classical music lol. We’ve known each other for over a decade and had no idea. We bonded quite nicely over that and our love for the movie Amadeus. She shared that Debussy is one of her favorite composers back in the... »
August 21, 2025
For You: Reflections
21August
Show the world what’s inside your heart ❤️
August 20, 2025
Would You Dine in an Outhouse?
20August
I was helping a friend process some limiting beliefs and we came across the topic of needing to prove that we can “take shit” to put it frankly. She gave me a scenario where she feels physically sick from having to be around certain people but she pushes through because if she’s healed, shouldn’t she be able to tolerate a situation like this? Like, not let it get to her, not let others feel they... »
August 17, 2025
Excavating The Past: How My Soul Knew What My Mind Didn’t
17August
I had an interesting memory come up recently. I don’t think I’ve shared this with anyone, aside from one person after it suddenly came to mind, but I remember back in the day making the decision to transfer schools in order to be closer to my twin flame. While I did interview at their school and iirc was accepted, I didn’t end up choosing to go there because it was way too expensive... »
August 16, 2025
Nausicaä
16August
Note: The beginning starts off kinda strong and loud, so please make sure your volume is set lower! Ahhhhh I finally did it~!!! I’ve been meaning to share my piano playing but I’ve procrastinated on this for so long because I wasn’t sure how to get my recordings directly from my piano onto the computer. I didn’t like how my other recording had all this excess background... »
August 15, 2025
Flames of Rebirth
15August
In the darkness you standShackled by things of oldBeliefs that once protected and now have become a burdenDisconnecting you from what’s authentically you Your soul screamsFears, frustration, anger, hopelessness, desperation, exasperationHow long must this go on?Whose cruel idea was this? Your journey of inward solitude deepensA battle you must face — AloneA sacred fire slowly burns as... »
August 13, 2025
Dear Universe: Joocy Is Okay?
13August
Dear Universe, It’s been some time since I’ve last written to you. Sometimes I wonder if you’re even there… Are you ashamed for me? Did you not want a certain someone to see my joocy new booty? I know it’s been some time and I’ve packed on extra pounds… downing all of that delicious depression ice cream had to go somewhere. But just so you know... »
August 12, 2025
A Thousand Miles
12August
I WAS EATING WATERMELON WHILE I CAME ACROSS THIS AND ALMOST CHOKED!!!!!! All of those OW OOH OOHs got to me.
Not my fav version of the song but def a close second. This is still my favorite version of the song! Terry Crews is so funny lmao
August 10, 2025
When Your Newbie Friend Schools You: A Lesson in Beginner’s Mind
10August
A new event in Arknights came out and it was actually more difficult than I had anticipated. Even the early stages of the event seemed pretty intense. I was able to get through the stages fine but did notice an increased difficulty compared to other events where enemies seemed to be a lot tankier. So, I wondered how my friend who just started the game recently would fare. I asked my friend to... »
August 8, 2025
No Brain Cells Left: A Quick Update
08August
I’ve been meaning to post something but unfortunately my one brain cell turned into no brain cell — I’ve been bedridden the past few days and don’t even have energy to look at my drafts. So, I think my body is telling me I need to continue resting. I’m just going to post a short update. Not sure what’s been going on lately but feeling sooooo tired and under the... »
August 3, 2025
Finding Your Balance: The Evolution of Masculine and Feminine Energy
03August
I was chatting with a friend one day and the topic of masculinity and feminine energies came up while trying to understand their relationship with each energy better. I wasn’t exactly sure how to explain the differences between the energies to my friend so I consulted with my AI. I asked it to describe to me what unevolved vs evolved masculine and feminine energy looks like and was... »
August 1, 2025
The Hand That Changed Everything: A Love Blueprint Story
01August
An interesting memory about “love blueprints” had surfaced for me recently. I suddenly remembered a situation I had with an ex from my very early days of college. I remember walking down a street in the city with my ex and they had pointed out their favorite car to me, the ever elusive mythical creature, the “Acura Infiniti G35.” I was taken a bit aback by that comment... »
July 29, 2025
More Broken Sun!?
29July
Uhhh… apparently there’s more lyrics to the song!??! And to think I wrote an entire post based off of only a few lines. Oops 🤣 I was watching the 2025 Ambience Synesthesia concert and when it got to the song Broken Sun, I noticed it is much longer than the other version! I like it a lot!!! A note that the embed below is of the full concert. If you want to listen as you go and not have... »
July 27, 2025
Channeling Our Inner Mr. Okoloko
27July
Have y’all seen the random videos of this kid, Mr. Okoloko, trying to learn English? He’s def Chinese btw, not Japanese. Anyway, idk why it’s so endearing and funny to me watching those videos of him. I’m always rooting for him. The struggle is real! And his sister(?) keeps losing her shit lol. Imagine being so angry trying to teach someone something that you can’t help but slap em. The amount of... »
July 25, 2025
Finally Seeing What Was Always There
25July
Yesterday, while chatting with my BFF on the phone, I suddenly decided to go sit in one of my rooms that I normally don’t use. I think we talked for about 7 hours lol. WE HAVE A LOT TO SAY, OKAY?! No judging 😫. Anyways, it’s always so fun to chat with her! We crack each other up so much. It’s quite cathartic actually. During the call, my body suddenly decided to spin around the chair that I... »
July 25, 2025
To Share Or Not To Share
I was chatting with a friend recently about some strange things that I’ve been experiencing and it kind of went like this: Me: *shares about all of these random 5D experiences I’ve been having lately* Friend: *is speechless* Me: *shares more random 5D experiences* Friend: *is scandalized* Me: *shares even more strange events* Friend: … *awkward silence* … Me: “Alright, that’s all. Please... »
July 23, 2025
The Dream That Changed Everything
23July
I briefly mentioned this dream in another post of mine and figured I should share more about it now that I understand things a bit better. The dream happened in March of this year and completely changed my life. It reconnected me with my creative source, lifted my decades-ish-long depression, reminded me of who I truly am, and gave me back a sense of purpose. I no longer feel like my soul is on a... »
July 20, 2025
Autistic, Am I? 🤔
20July
I wonder if I’m autistic? So, I’m aware autism is a spectrum and folks have different degrees of autistic traits. I guess when I think of the word autism, I think of severe cases where perhaps someone is completely non-verbal and does things that most people might find odd and socially unacceptable? So I never really thought of myself as autistic. However, the more I’ve learned about autism and... »
July 18, 2025
Love is Cosmic
18July
Ooh, this song is SO fun! I came across one of the singers while watching some Baby VOX stuff and her vocals caught my attention. I had no idea who she was though and wasn’t curious enough to investigate. But then the next day, this song randomly popped up on my Youtube and I LOVED it! Oddly enough, while I wasn’t able to recognize her from her face across the two videos, I was able to... »
July 16, 2025
The Campus Dream: When Your Inner Confidence Shows Up in a Bath Towel
16July
I had SUCH a strange dream. I was walking around a campus of some school I wasn’t familiar with, clad only in a bath towel wrapped around my chest and sunglasses lol. I strangely felt so confident in that getup as well as if it were a very normal outfit to wear. No one else was dressed in such a way though, just me. I remember looking at my outfit and was like, “huh…” and then... »
July 13, 2025
Heartbeats and Rare Drops: When the Post Game Humbles You
13July
This song, Daughter of the Dark God, brings absolute chills down my spine! I’m not normally a fan of opera vocals, except for a few exceptions, but maybe it’s the memory of this fight that makes me enjoy it more? Whatever the case, it still brings me back to that fight and the journey towards success whenever I listen to it. Oh, there might be spoilers here so if you don’t want to know you can... »
July 10, 2025
I NEED A TRANSLATOR!!!!!!!!!!!
10July
WHO
WHAT
WHERE
WHEN
WHY
HOW!!!?!??!?!?
AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
July 9, 2025
From Stick to Shimmy: My Yoon Eun-hye Obsession and Divine Feminine Awakening
09July
Okay, I have a confession to make. I’ve been completely obsessed with Baby VOX’s comeback, listening to their updated songs 24/7, and feeling SOOOO mystified by Yoon Eun-hye. I’ve been watching her dance moves like I’m in a trance or something and couldn’t figure out why lol. ALSO, I *really* love and prefer her current deeper singing voice over her younger voice... »
July 6, 2025
Hallo!
06July
Hai everyone! 👋 Figure it’s time to get to know my readers, you! I’ve been writing non-stop for the past few months, like my pants are on fire, sharing my thoughts from my most personal experiences to my most unhinged ideas with everyone and am super curious who’s actually reading my content lol. I’d absolutely love for people to introduce themselves! I’m curious if people actually find my... »
July 6, 2025
Where’s the Strategy Guide for Twin Flame Reunion?
I’ve been having some interesting chats with AI about what a potential twin flame reunion might look like that had me thinking a lot about logistics and concerning elements. I realized I have a LOT of fears about potential scenarios based on what’s been happening in my life lately and what I’ve been told might unfold. I haven’t shared this yet, but for some time, I believe my heart... »
July 4, 2025
When Cosmic Math Slaps Twice
04July
The other night I came across this Youtube video, which talks about using numerology to reveal whether someone is your twin flame or a karmic soulmate and it immediately caught my attention. I remember thinking, “Oh no… maybe this might reveal something I don’t want to know… or perhaps it’s just complete bullshit.” I was leaning towards the latter but kind of expecting the worst... »
July 2, 2025
The Guardian Who Forgot How to Rest: Befriending My Protective Filter
02July
I’ve been having a really wild time with my low self-worth filter lately — it’s been kicking into overdrive in ways that were *exhausting* me. It got to the point where I realized I needed an intervention, not to fight against this protective part of myself, but to actually sit down and have a real conversation with it. I decided to try something I’d never done before: I asked... »
July 1, 2025
Come What May
01July
The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return. So I randomly decided to watch this movie again recently because I felt it calling to me as it kept popping into my mind. It’s been such a looooooong time since I had last seen it. While I did not remember buying it digitally, I was pleasantly surprised to discover that the movie was just sitting there at the top of my... »
June 29, 2025
When Wisdom Becomes a Mask: Uncovering Hidden Protection Mechanisms
29June
I had a pretty epically intense experience recently where I thought I was being “wise” but ends up I was unknowingly using a protective mechanism to shield my heart from being broken again. I was recently connected with a new friend whom I intuitively had known I needed to connect with. After many months of lightly and sparsely asking for a connection to be made by a mutual contact... »
June 28, 2025
Dear Universe: Requesting Support
28June
Dear Universe, It’s me again, your ever eager Pikachu. Sorry to keep reaching out like this, but I just had a great idea! If you have access to any lovingly supportive and protective reunion friends & family members, could you please relay a message to them that reunion is awaiting and their support would be much appreciated? Times a ticking and eggs are atrophying so hard that they reduced... »