I never knew why I resonated so much with this song until I started paying attention to the lyrics. Thankfully, the lyrics aren’t as explicit as the ones in my naughty street post so I don’t have to unga bunga today but they’re quite deep, IMO! What’s funny is it’s only 6 lines but hits me soooooooo hard!!! I guess not paying attention to lyrics might be a theme in my life lol.
Broken sunShed a light on everyoneBroken sunYou are not the only oneOh, they can’t take my sparkI won’t let you go dark
I think I am starting to now understand why this song touches my heart as I contemplate the meaning behind the lyrics.
The imagery of the “broken sun” reminds me of how we’re born as Light & Love and through our growth journeys, we become “broken” through the painful experiences that naturally occur, which darkens, obscures, and covers our Light, in order to create situations and scenarios that best assist in our growth (think of our Earthly experiences as a crucible). However, as rough as things get, our inner Light never truly ceases to exist — it’s just temporarily subdued. Through our process of maturity, or dare I say our coming of age experiences, and facing our shadows, learning and growing from them, we naturally return to our luminous origins (i.e. our authentic Selves).
This reminds me of the Japanese process of Kintsugi where there’s still beauty in what is deemed “broken” and the gold, or similar valuable material, that is used to mend what has been cracked now makes the pieces more refined and exquisite. It’s almost like having beautiful battle scars that remind us of how far we’ve come. It’s through our transmutation and healing of our pains, suffering, hardship, etc. that forms us into that “broken sun,” helping us to become more resilient, more compassionate, more empathetic, more loving, more radiant, and more authentic to our true Selves.
It’s almost like having beautiful battle scars that remind us of how far we’ve come.
As broken as we may feel through the struggles, pain, and suffering that life throws at us, it can never truly squish our Light unless we allow it to. From my own experience venturing into my own darkness and choosing to stay there until I was ready to leave, even moments of thinking the absolute worst and almost completely losing hope, the Light was always there. BTW, I want to note that what I’ve just described is different from my battle with the dark forest as mentioned in my previous post in case there’s any confusion. Choosing to stay in the darkness came afterwards when I realized I could create my own “shadow gym” without feeling like it was something completely out of my control. Let me just say, it’s a totally different experience when we *choose* how and when to face our shadows versus the shadows choosing for us. When we direct it ourselves, we get to set some parameters and create safety around the experience. When the shadows get to pick, it feels out of control, like we’re drowning, or like we are being punished in some form or another.
Anyway, perhaps it was through friendly reminders of others’ golden beams peering in, even if ever so faintly. Or maybe it was a deep knowing that the experience was happening for me and not to me. Finding that Light within helped me gather the strength and courage to finally face what was hiding in my own darkness. Whatever the case, it reminded me of the tenacity of my Light’s eternal flame.
What if the struggles, the pain, and the suffering are all part of the grand plan? What if we are meant to kintsugi our Selves through each harrowing experience to deepen our own inner Light until it naturally radiates outwards and all of those experiences are meant to help us shed what’s untrue and no longer serving us so that we can become authentically our Selves? What if these experiences are simply meant to remind us of who we truly are and meant to show us our strengths, undiscovered talents, and hidden gifts? What if they’re here to remind us that we too deserve to be loved as much as we love others? Could that give us purpose and meaning in our existence? Can you find the lessons and meaning behind your own painful experiences? What could possibly be the gem in those experiences that is meant to help you grow?
I would like to be a bit careful here. Finding meaning in our suffering does not mean that we excuse abusive, manipulative, disrespectful, and hurtful behavior from others. It just means that we understand the lesson that’s being presented to us through those situations (e.g. standing up for ourselves, learning how to say no, learning how to draw boundaries, finding our own Self worth, finding self acceptance, etc.) no matter how difficult it might be. It means we’re not letting situations define who we are, but that we can choose how we would like to interpret such situations so that it helps us learn, heal, and feel empowered. When people have clearly shown us that they do not respect our boundaries, care for our wellbeing, or prioritize our needs as much as their own, it is totally okay to draw strict boundaries and even leave situations if necessary.
Convincing someone of your worth and that you don’t deserve to be mistreated is a losing game and not worth your time. Play stupid games, win stupid prizes. The people who see your value will not need you to prove it to them. They will love you as you are, warts and all, and want you to continue improving, learning, growing, and becoming the best version of yourself.
My beloved meditation teacher once told me, a message passed on from a teacher of hers, something along the lines of, “Did you think you came to Earth this lifetime to have an easy time? If so, you’re sorely mistaken. You’re here to learn, grow, and evolve.” I’m unsure if I captured her quote correctly but that’s how I internalized it and perhaps added my own lil flair to it lol. Some of the most loving and awakened people I’ve met are those who have gone through the toughest experiences ever and have made it out on the other side kinder, more compassionate, and more empathetic because they understand the pain — they’ve been there, they’ve sat with it, and they’ve become transformed by it. They chose to find the courage from within to face what was contributing to their darkness. They continue to choose love over hatred even after having experienced great injustices or suffering.
What if this is just all part of the process and our job is to simply observe, self-reflect, learn, and evolve? The more I’ve faced my shadows and learned from my lessons, the better my life seems to naturally have gotten, and so I can’t deny the results. With each lesson learned, I feel lighter, happier, and more like my true Self — the one I remembered as a young child, before creating Self limiting beliefs, but now with the added benefit of maturity, more perspective on life, Self awareness, better emotional intelligence, and the ability to protect myself when necessary.
I’d also like to briefly mention that I’m generally an *incredibly private person* and do not really enjoy having my ‘stuff’ out there, and so it’s been somewhat of an uncomfortable experience being this vulnerable, sharing my innermost thoughts, revisiting dark moments, and speaking from my heart in such a manner. Sometimes I hesitate to hit “publish” on certain posts. However, I find myself still choosing to continue sharing as authentically as I can no matter what because I think you’re worth it. I believe your growth means more to me than my own fear of vulnerability. I’m not looking for a pat on the back. I’m not looking for external validation. I’m just sharing what’s true for me and will continue to speak my truth. I will do my best to share what I’ve learned on my own journey to help pave the path of unconditional Love because it is something I believe this world needs more of, a LOT more of.
I believe that the more people who awaken to the unconditional Love that they are by clearing away what’s untrue and unhelpful, the more lives can be positively touched by unconditional Love. I’m sure you might’ve noticed something is not quite right about our current times. I believe we are at a critical point on this planet where authentic unconditional Love is needed more than ever. The most efficient route I’ve discovered in casting shadows aside to where they belong is to make sure we become so absolutely radiant that the shadows don’t have a chance to survive. They will naturally be transmuted by our Light. The more of us radiating together, the faster the paradigm shift from fear to Love will come. This requires us to find the courage to do our inner work and to face and befriend those shadows, so that our inner Light shines so bright we naturally radiate unconditional Love.
Oh, they can’t take my sparkI won’t let you go dark
As long as I am still alive on this planet, as long as my spark is still there, I will make sure no matter how dark things get, I will be your golden beam so that you can find your way back home to that which is authentically you. No matter how difficult life gets, just know that you’re not alone on this crazy journey. I am here, patiently waiting, rooting for your healing and transformation. If not this lifetime, then the next. Let my words help guide your way. Then let us light the way for our Selves, our loved ones, friends, communities, and future generations, transforming shadows into the wisdom they were always meant to become.
❤️ AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!! ❤️