Sarah— interpreter of the stars and illuminator of our hearts. On this fateful day when the cosmos first welcomed your twin-starred spirit, I celebrate you and our journey learning and growing together. Your beads of wisdom passing onto me like a waterfall of celestial essence and luminous truth — ever healing, ever loving, and ever protecting.
Our time spent sitting and meditating together, learning to be with what is, allowing feelings, thoughts, and emotions to come and go like passing clouds in the sky, and learning how to tame my monkey mind has created a foundation of stillness and acceptance which fuels my ability to face the challenges that come my way.
Through the practice of Bodhichitta, we chose to keep our hearts open while acknowledging that pain and suffering still exist within and around us. Through the practice of Tonglen, and the concept of genuine heart of sadness, you taught me the importance of compassion and understanding where we can never truly know the depths of what silently weighs on others. All we can do is try to do our part to help lessen the suffering by keeping our hearts open and sharing our own capacity for unconditional Love with others, hoping that this love continues to ripple outwards beyond our immediate influence, while maintaining healthy boundaries.
Your embodiment of feminine grace, elegance, and nurturing warmth, harmoniously balanced with formidable inner strength, raw power, and razor-sharp intellect showed me what true integration looks like. In witnessing how effortlessly you danced between gentle sweetness and fierce wisdom, it allowed me to recognize my own capacity to embrace these seemingly opposite energies within myself. You demonstrated that true power lies not in rejecting softness for strength, but in weaving them together into a complete whole — a holistic lesson that continues to shape how I navigate both my inner landscape and the outer world.
Your guidance helped me meet my first shadow, a fierce and protective “Nine-tails,” who empowers me with a considerable amount of vital force and allows me to become aware of when boundaries have been crossed, finally allowing me to let down my mask and walls in order to confront the immense rage boiling within — who knew I harbored such a primal scream and that it takes 6 to restrain me? It is now my guiding light in ensuring that my boundaries, needs, and authentic voice are respected. It’s allowed me to see the protective energy and inner strength that resides within myself and how when needed, it will come out swiftly and fiercely.
This newfound awareness and respect for my own boundaries gave me the courage to discern and choose situations that serve my highest good. It helped me identify where my time and energy is best invested and to make hard and necessary changes when the need arises, helping cultivate my confidence and conviction behind the difficult life choices I’ve had to make.
The past decade of our time apart has helped me synthesize and integrate your teachings at a soul level, transforming myself from within— one shadow, one heartbreak, one betrayal at a time.
In solitude and darkness, I grasped for the tools you’ve shared with me, helping to alchemize overwhelming pain and excruciating emotions into insights and practical wisdom. I learned to stand at the forefront of my own shadows, challenging and befriending them, seeing them for what they truly are – messengers and protectors – integral parts of myself that require deep exploration, understanding, acceptance, and integration. While I’m sure more will continue to surface in divine timing, I am confident I have the tools to continue transmuting whatever transpires.
Emerging from my self created cocoon and isolation, I now present to you my current evolution of your influence and teachings. The precious guidance I received from you years past continues to live on within me as a persistent undercurrent of wisdom, love, and support, in which I find eternal solace. The essence of your teachings is forever a part of me, radiating and emanating through all that I touch.
My dear and sweet Gemini goddess— please know that my Love and appreciation for you and our past experiences together run deep. Our separation has not diminished any of that, it has only matured, transformed, and strengthened. May we one day soar through the cosmos together again while leaving behind our own everlasting imprint into the starry night skies and help usher in the paradigm shift from fear to Love in this magical and mystical world. Forever friends and confidants.
With enduring gratitude and respect,
Vita