Yesterday, while chatting with my BFF on the phone, I suddenly decided to go sit in one of my rooms that I normally don’t use. I think we talked for about 7 hours lol. WE HAVE A LOT TO SAY, OKAY?! No judging 😫. Anyways, it’s always so fun to chat with her! We crack each other up so much. It’s quite cathartic actually.
During the call, my body suddenly decided to spin around the chair that I was sitting in and rummage mindlessly through a nearby box of keepsakes I had. I thought that was strange but decided to go along with it as I was curious what my intuition wanted me to find. Who’s a good lil meatsack? *Raises hand* I am!
As I was rummaging through the box of random keepsakes, I felt a gradual sense of anticipation building up. Like, the feeling that something important is coming, that it’s getting closer and closer. I had a feeling what it could’ve been but I wasn’t confident that specific keepsake was actually in that particular box. It took me basically emptying the entire box and getting to the near bottom of it to pull out the keepsake I was hoping was there.
The keepsake is a photo from decades ago of me and my friends during one of my birthday gatherings. What is special about this photo is that iirc I had never invited my friends to my birthday gatherings before up until that year. I’d always just go along with however my parents wanted to celebrate, which was usually inviting relatives and family friends over. So, this was the first year I sent out my own invitations and it was very meaningful to me.
I took a look at the photos and felt them in my heart. I noticed how happy we all looked. You know those genuine smiles where you can see it in the eyes? We all had it. I remember being SOOOOOO ridiculously happy that day. My heart was absolutely full. I remember feeling especially happy because my twin flame was also there. I wasn’t sure they’d show but they did. I was also a bit surprised by how young we all looked!!! This brought back such positive memories. These are the only photos I have of my twin flame btw! So they’re very precious to me.
I shared with my BFF what I had found and proceeded to take pictures of the photos to send to her. Strange thing taking photos of photos lol. She made some really nice comments about what she saw in the photos and then a few specific comments about my twin flame. All positive things, no worries lol. I took her comments to heart and appreciated them. I was beaming with joy that I had finally found the photos, that they weren’t lost.
Later that day, I decided to share the photos with a different friend of mine — one who is actually married to their twin flame since they’ve been helping guide me on my own journey. Btw, it was so crazy how I found out that information because twin flame guidance wasn’t the reason we became friends lol. When we had first met, a few months ago, I asked them about their opinion on one of my poems and they mentioned they thought I was writing about twin flames. I was surprised because I don’t normally meet people who are familiar with this topic so I asked how they knew and that’s when I found out. Our friendship is definitely divinely timed — arrived at the perfect time when I was starting to navigate this cosmic situation. Anyway, this friend also made similar comments to me about my photos that my BFF had made. I thought that was strange and asked for more clarification. After they shared what they saw between me and my twin flame and the reasoning behind their thoughts, I started tearing up.
I think I cried because I felt so stupid and blind. I think I also cried because at that moment everything had suddenly become so real — the twin flame connection, the “cosmic” work that I’ve been doing through the blog, the dream activation, my life completely turning upside down (for the better) the past few months, my intuitive hits, my whole journey thus far. There’s a reason for all of this and they’re all interconnected.
Although I’ve been working through my own insecurities and doubts, like negotiating with my protective filters, and have made noticeable progress, I am aware that there’s still a small tinge of doubt that continued to linger within me. Part of me still wondered if I’m being delusional, that all of this is fake, that this is all one big cosmic joke. But having the photos in hand, in which not one but two of my friends told me the same thing that they saw, where I could verify it with my own eyes, somehow made everything solidify and finally sink in.
I think I also cried because it finally hit me how much unnecessary pain my emotional denseness had caused my twin flame the past few decades. I could only imagine the internal torment that they must’ve experienced, not realizing that their feelings were reciprocated. I kept thinking if only I weren’t so ridiculously dense, perhaps we could’ve avoided all of this pain. While I do realize that there is no reason to be upset, as our separation was for good reason — to help us cultivate our own wholeness before reuniting — I can’t help but feel sadness for the lost time and the unnecessary suffering. It also broke my heart that we were both clueless about the depth of love we each had for one another. It was like two boats just missing one another as we lacked the tools and emotional knowledge back then to understand what was going on between us.
I ended up sharing the photo with another close friend who is aware of the situation and they marveled at how similar our energies looked. Apparently my friend can see energy! From a photo too!!! How cool is that!? It makes total sense though that our energies would be similar since we’re two halves of the same soul.
You know, I had subconsciously avoided that box of keepsakes for the longest time. I’d try not to go into the room where it’s kept unless absolutely necessary. I think a part of me always knew I wasn’t ready to face what was in that box and so it sat there for the longest time collecting dust. My assumption is that since I was guided intuitively to locate the photo that day, I believe this means I’m finally able to handle the truth.
Idk what finding this photo means and where it might lead me next, but I’m just glad more and more of the truth about my past is continuing to reveal itself to me and that I am actually able to face and process that truth. Perhaps I’ve finally gotten to a place where I am ready for the next phase? We shall see!
P.S. To my cosmic twin, you ain’t the only one who got a Team Reunion supporting you. I got one too and I bet mine is just as cool as yours!!!
