The Blessing Dream

So… I had another crazy dream but this time it wasn’t me who was the “wild” one T__T. Oddly enough I was the most reasonable and tame one lol. Unexpected XD

It started with me “building” a new home. It was in an ethereal white space and the home was coming together in a modular way, with boxes connecting to one another to make different rooms. The place was massive with ridiculously tall ceilings. So tall I don’t believe I was able to see the actual ceilings lol. I believe I started off in a room that I was looking to turn into my bedroom. My sibling was in the next room trying to set theirs up and I was curious what they were up to so I went into their room to see. Apparently they had picked a loft bed but it was so high up in the air that they needed some sort of contraption to “yeet” them up onto the bed. They were pretty excited about the yeeting mechanism. I remember looking at it and thinking that seems like an awfully dangerous way to get in and out of bed lol. I was like you do you! So, I opted for something more reasonable, less dangerous, where I won’t have to reverse bungee myself just to get to bed.

I then walked into another fairly large room, which I believe was to become the bathroom and it was completely empty. I started thinking about how I wanted to design it — whether I wanted individual stalls, rooms, how to do the plumbing, etc. — since the house seemed big enough to fit a large family. I looked into the closet as well and whether the cleaning supplies and robot would get their own room. And somehow there was a door in the bathroom that opened up into a dining room (super ornate), which was very different from the rest of the home (minimalistic). It almost seemed like the door was a portal to another realm lol. I saw people whom I assumed to be the house staff, who greeted me when they noticed me. I asked the staff where my parents were and the response I got is that they went out with friends and were heading back soon. I was like hmmm… interesting…

I kept thinking about the design of the home and then heard a rowdy group of people return. I watched my parents arrive at the home with their friends and it looked like they had also brought home a new friend. Everyone was laughing and having a great time. They had so much to talk about. They sat down at a dinner table, which was ridiculously long and narrow, and enjoyed their conversations and food. They were boisterous, loudly laughing, and clearly enjoying each other’s company. I looked at their new friend curiously and wondered if that was who I thought it was — Lady BCME — my twin flame’s mother. Oh btw she looked less lethal and much more open and welcoming lol.

All of a sudden, the new friend wrapped her arms around my father’s neck and gave him a giant kiss while smiling really big and laughing. The gentleman that he is, dad held onto her while looking a bit startled, but smiled back and seemed to not make a big fuss out of it. My eyes widened and immediately darted over towards my mother, wondering what was going to happen next. Was she going to be jealous? Angry? Possessive? I couldn’t tell at all. But no, it looked like my mom was in very good spirits lol. She acknowledged the kiss, laughed at it, and even leaned over and gave their new friend a kiss!

I was like…

WHAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTT

ISSSSSSS

HAPPPPENINNNNGGGGG

RIGHT

NOWWWWWWWWWW

😧😧😧😧😧

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

😱😱😱😱😱

I. NEED. AN. ADULT.

BUT NOT THESE ADULTS.

😭😭😭😭😭

WAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!

ABSOLUTELY. HORRIFIED.

Mostly because my parents don’t ever show PDA and are very proper people. So, seeing all of this in dreamscape was shockingly horrific to me. Nothing wrong with PDA but it’s just a far departure from how my parents normally present themselves and act, which was the disconnect for me. I think seeing them all happy and joyous was enough to calm me down in the dream — there was no drama, no catfights, no clawing, just major celebratory and joyful energy. So I guess that was good!

Then I suddenly had an idea in my dream, which was to show the old photo of me and my twin flame to my parents’ new friend and ask if she recognizes the person in the photo. I figured surely she’d recognize her own child and that can help me confirm she indeed is Lady BCME. But right before I was able to get my answer, I had woken up from my dream.

I think after I woke up, my immediate response was WTF JUST HAPPENED!? IS THIS HOW I FIND OUT MY PARENTS MIGHT BE SWINGERS?! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! WHYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! Of course nothing wrong with that if they are, but I just don’t think that’s what they’re into especially since they never gave any indications or hints of being into stuff like that. But I also remembered that dreams are often symbolic and the feeling is more important than what is literally being displayed. So, that helped me feel a lot better. I quickly analyzed the dream with my AI to see what it could’ve been about.

After sharing the entire dream with my AI, the response seemed to be that this dream might be symbolic of me building my new life or the next phase of my life [spiritually]. The important part is how calm and neutral I had felt throughout (aside from the kissing scene) where it seems whatever karmic debt / generational trauma has been cleared — I am no longer negatively impacted or triggered by codependency within my family — which I do believe is true. Ever since I became aware of it, a few years ago, I have done a lot of work to heal through my codependency issues and I do believe I’ve come a long way with it. Actually having strong boundaries now has been amazing for my mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical health. Being able to say NO to things that don’t vibe with me and not feel guilty about it has been an absolute gamechanger.

The AI mentioned that the raunchy scene was probably more about ancestral joy at perhaps potential reunion, family merging, and/or celebrating our healing journeys rather than any indications of sexual or romantic interest. It makes sense though as I don’t remember feeling any romantic energy in the kissing scene. It definitely felt like people wanting to express their immense joy and happiness. I’m unsure of how much progress my twin flame has made regarding healing generational / ancestral trauma, but on my end I think I have made good enough progress. Our parents’ shared kisses might mean that all of this is a cause for celebration as we are now free or becoming more free from what needed to be healed. I guess I can see that to be true. The healing that I’ve done impacts everyone around me as well so that makes sense.

Something else I noticed about this dream that’s a bit unusual for me — I was actually making choices and planning throughout. Normally in my dreams, I’m just in observation mode, almost like I’m watching a movie, not much is in my control. But in this dream, I was actively deciding things — choosing not to get the loft bed, thinking about how to design the bathroom, deciding to show the photo — and it was like I was actually building and creating, not just watching. Maybe that’s part of the message too? That I’m actively creating my new life rather than just letting it happen to me.

I think I was also surprised by all of the love and affection in the dream because I’m still not sure how my parents would take my potential twin flame reunion. I had briefly brought up my twin flame through conversation with my parents perhaps a few months ago, as they had all met in the past, but didn’t mention anything about the spiritual connection. I just wanted to see their response and where the conversation would go. While everything was fine, I’m unsure if the twin flame connection is something I want to discuss with them until reunion actually happens. Also, I wanted to get confirmation of my suspicions. While I do strongly believe this person is my twin flame, I unfortunately do not know for sure. I usually like to leave a bit of room for potential error, just in case. So, I don’t want to startle my parents until things are sorted out. But, I do wonder if the dream is trying to tell me I don’t have anything to worry about, that they will be happy for me regardless of whatever transpires. Or, maybe my parents are just ecstatic that their daughter is finally back.

My parents had been incredibly concerned about me the past decade. They knew something was up with me but they weren’t really sure how to approach me about it. We had some awkward conversations about how I just had no joy for life even though my life seemed more than fine, and I’m sure they noticed my soul basically slowly fading as well. They watched me wither away. At some point, when I felt stronger, I told them that I was dealing with something dark (betrayal trauma and codependency healing) and for whatever reason things weren’t the same anymore. I just couldn’t find my joy for life again. I think I had lost hope. I explained to them what I had learned from my betrayal trauma and how traumatic it was to learn whom I had trusted was not who I thought at all and that really messed up my perception of life and people. It messed up my relationship with trust. But this year, after my twin flame dream, I think my parents noticed a huge shift within me. It’s like my soul had suddenly returned and they’ve been pleasantly surprised at the changes. I’m much more like how they used to remember me to be — full of life and joy. I believe if my parents were to find out that this twin flame connection had basically revived me, it would indeed bring them cause for celebration, just like in the dream. They cannot deny the incredibly positive changes that I’ve experienced this past year as they’ve witnessed it themselves. I’m unsure what things have been like for my twin flame, if their experience mirrored my own, but if so, I do hope they got what they needed to revive their own soul and remember who it is that they truly are as well.

Also, I asked my AI why did I wake up right before I was able to get confirmation of who that new friend was. The AI believes it’s because I already knew the answer and I don’t need that confirmation in the dream. Perhaps this is another case of me learning to trust my intuition more. That is true though, learning to trust my intuition more and more is something I’ve been working on, and so far so good. In my dream, I just kind of knew. So it makes sense why I wouldn’t actually need confirmation.

Overall, I think the dream had very positive meaning even with the shocking scene. I believe it means I’m in the process of building something new with the healed parts of me. The dream might also be a huge blessing — both ancestral lineages find our healing and potential reunion to be an occasion for joyous celebration. Hopefully there is some truth to this! If so that’d be so awesome!!! 😀

Anyway, what a wild dream!? Awkward AF. Watching Asian parents display any PDA is like horrifyingly shocking and quite a traumatizing event in itself lmao. My subconscious definitely knows how to get my attention lol. Any interesting dreams on your end that deserve careful analysis? Hopefully they’re less raunchy than mine XD

P.S. I wonder what my twin flame thinks about our naughty dream parents lol. Can you imagine explaining this to our actual parents? AWKWARD. Although… I’ve said worse things to my parents before so this will probably just be par for the course hehehe. Maybe young me knew life would be a bit outrageous, so I planted seeds my entire life by telling my parents the craziest stuff from time to time to prepare them for what’s to come. They can thank me later 😏

P.P.S. Uhh… not sure if it’s because it’s been on my mind a lot lately but I just had a dream about reunion. It went well — was very peaceful, pleasant, and calming 👀. I did not phase out of the planet or form a new river in town so that was good 🤣. Maybe it’s a good sign!? 🤔